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I found you through Medium and have great interest in the The Spirritual War guide and uncovering the truth about the world and universe and Spirit . I would like to donate and honor divine reciprocity . Thank you

‘Talk about the chips being stacked against me. I was so over life back 15+ years ago. I really wanted out. I wanted to end it all. That’s just a fact. I fantasized about suicide, thinking about it all day every day. 

I know now that The Dark Side wanted me gone before there was a chance I would be activated, and they tried very hard from multiple angles to pull any joy or peace from my life, to guide me towards self-destruction.’

When I got to this part… I really felt this…I had my own similar experience 3 years ago. I’m sharing because maybe it will help someone else; it made me rethink and question what suicide is and whether or not its really the person creating these thoughts on their own or is it from an outside entity pushing them on to a person… which is what I experienced. I would not consider myself a suicidal person (I still don’t) … and that was a thought I kept having during this time when thoughts were ‘popping’ up in my head with very graphic ways to end my life…it was like my mind was getting hijacked and the thoughts didn’t feel like my own, but I couldn’t stop them either…there was no ‘off’ button. I was becoming aware that this was a person/entity on the other side pushing this on to me (could not understand why). But I eventually got to a breaking point one afternoon when I was home by myself and picked up one of our kitchen knives and held it up to my neck (yelling something along the lines of ‘this is what you want?? Fine i’m done’). And then I felt something come between my neck and the tip of the blade pushing it back/blocking it from puncturing my skin… this never became my ‘aha’ moment that God/ angels etc exist… I already had that belief. But it left me questioning suicide/ depression and how to keep myself and family safe; because if I could have this happen to me.. what about my kids or my husband (who is not awake and wants nothing to do with spirituality etc.).